Francesca’s Infusion Experience ‘09
I was not even sure I was going to ‘Infusion’ this last May. Stephen and Kim had mentioned it to me. I wanted to go but I did not want to deal with the pressure of feeling the need to walk around with a fake smile plastered on my face, pretending to be happy. Because the truth is, I was not happy. I was struggling with all sorts of questions and doubts. There was an intense anger burning in the pit of my stomach because I didn’t know what to do with knowledge about the Bible and God. I thought, “I know about God and about the Word and all that, but what the heck am I supposed to do with it?”
There is so much I wanted to do with my life, and still do. I want to make a practical difference in people’s lives. I want to be a friend not a judge, and to give. I thought the Bible required me to be a judge, but I wondered, “How could I judge anyone when I was such a sinner myself?” My struggle was taking me all over the place intellectually and emotionally. I didn’t know how to be me and be a child of God at the same time.
I felt like an impostor to everyone. To my non-Christian friends I was Continue Reading…