Campus Ambassadors @ UAlbany

Dennis Zeng’s Story

The first semester of college was a fun semester but a rough one for my spirit. I did things that God would never have approved of, nor would he be proud of. Leaving for college was one of my highest priorities in high school. I wanted to get away from my parents, the drama and even possibly from God.

When I was finally out of high school and on my own, I couldn’t wait to live my own independent life. My parents were out of sight and out of mind. I lived a life like a non-believer. I did go to church occasionally but was up late all night partying. I would wake up and go to church the next day with the same clothes I went to the party with. Looking back at it now, I laugh at what a hypocrite I was. I proclaimed to everyone around me that I was a Christian, a follower of Christ but yet when asked who goes out to party the most in my suite, they would all point to me. I am Ashamed and disgusted with that now.

I was living this lifestyle for a while. That was until my church paid for me to go Urbana last winter break. Before going to Urbana, I knew I was living a life that was not led by Christ, but I chose to hide it. I chose to hide all my sins from my fellow Christ followers and especially tried to hide my sins from God.  That worked out for a while until God spoke to me!

During the trip in Urbana, we attended daily workshops. I went with the flow and did whatever everyone around me did. That was until one day, one of my workshops was closed due to too many people for the space provided. So I wandered around and sat down on a couch. I figured I could just sit there until dinner since I didn’t really think I would learn anything anyways. As that chain of thoughts went through my head, I heard a guitar playing. I went towards the room the music was coming from thinking, “I might as well sit in a room with entertainment instead of in silence alone.”

The music was coming from a worship room. I walked in and sat in the back. Everyone around me was either singing their lungs out or crying their eyes out. Either/Or; but nothing in between! When dinner was ready, I walked out of the room as soon as possible. I liked the songs but didn’t like the intense emotions in the room.

Two days later, I was back in the same room. There was this urge in me to go back and sit in there. As I sat down in the same seat, I let the music penetrate me. The lyrics spoke to me in ways I never heard or experienced before! One particular line was “here I am to worship, here I am to bow down, and here I am to say that you’re my God!”

At that point, my head just seemed to automatically bow in prayer; a prayer of confession. A week prior I was as prideful as one could be, and now repeatedly begging God to forgive me!

As I stood up and was about to leave the room, my feet led me to a prayer minister. I tried to walk the other way, but my feet kept doing their own thing. Next thing I knew, I was awkwardly confronted by a prayer minister. “Do you need a prayer?” she asked. I just nodded my head. That was when I started confessing to her about my sins and that I needed her to pray for forgiveness of me. As we prayed, she asked the Holy Spirit to come into me and to speak to me in any way possible. She prayed for me and stopped, she told me to listen for the Holy Spirit.

As I sat in silence, a voice came out from the silence. It said, “I know what you have gone through. I was with you the whole time. If your heart is willing and you are able, I will continue to be with you.”  Almost breaking down in tears, the prayer minister told me she saw an image in her head. It was an image of me walking around the world with a bible in my hand and glowing. My life was changed at this point! She anointed me with oil on my forehead and prayed for me again.

Out of all the famous and wonderful speakers in that huge event, those who flew in from half way around the world, God chose to speak to me in a much smaller environment, in a place that took me by surprise. I thank God for that.

I hope he takes you by surprise and changes your life too. It is the best thing that could ever happen to you!

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Posted in Leader Stories and Testimonies, by Steve Bugler, 7 years, 1 month ago at 12:00 pm.

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